FreeThink: Reflections, Criticisms and Emotion

I have not been able to post anything for some time now. Always, I pretended to be busy when in fact I really am.. I just finished my Master's Thesis Manuscript. I submitted it to my adviser for pre Defense revisions. I had done my shopping. Just finished the Cantata tomorrow will be the last day of preparation for our school's Christmas Party.  Still in the middle of an highway, whether I continue my stay in DEPED or leave for good to seek a better treatment in PSU. So far I am much inclined in choosing the ACADEME. I want a true career as an intellectual. My research direction is much clearer now. I want to pursue a study on indigenous people's culture. As for the Doctoral study, I am choosing between the RURAL DEVELOPMENT and EDUCATIONAL MANAGEMENT program of Western Philippines University. I am much more inclined in choosing the Rural Development.  Well I just need to win against the one last remaining obstacle befored my MAED degree be conferred to me. That is t...

What is the meaning of life for them? To those who expect to earn less than a quarter of a thousand per month? Yesterday I did another set of interviews with my research participants. I am trying to examine the effects of the labor culture of Palaw'an in education. What I found out? Life is unfair for them. Food is scarce and even public education appears to be so expensive that they could not afford. High school graduation is a thing they could be proud of. What is life for them? It is food. It is survival.

Leadership is the act of influencing people. Society has high regards of leaders because they made thing possible. They lead and they are being followed. Their opinions are heard and being listened. Their perspective is valued and their presence is being treasured. Leaders are being made. They die, but their deeds will not be forgotten. But right now, I want to reflect on the question, "why lead?" Why lead? The thing in leadership is this. Many people wants to lead but do not know the "why" of leadership? Why lead? is it because of influence? Power? Fame? A sense of self gratification? I believe that the why of leadership is responsibility. I agree with the Greek philosopher Plato when he said that a leader must hate his position. But the reading while he takes on leadership is because of his conviction that he is the best man to do the job. He wants direction. He sees problems and he has a plan in mind on how to solve it. Leadership is not a position. We...

Photocredit to source. Vacation is a the greatest gift for the working class of our society. It is one of the rarest time of our life to dump down all the sum of all the bad things (stress) we have acquired while we we perform the greatest absurdity of life. The thing called employment. We work to survive but we die working it is indeed the greatest loop in our existence. But by the way to answer the question how to move on from vacation? 1. First of all vacation is not real it does not exist. (Its like your ideal man/woman who you wait for the rest of your life. It is not true it is just a break from reality a temporary thing that is not to be relied upon. It is like taking glasses of beer and waking up in the morning). The point is, for the love of God just tell your self that it is not true. 2. Look at your purse. How much money was left ang make an accounting on how much of your resources qas spent. How many days or month have taken you to spend it and in almost a blink of a...

Why is there too much hate in this world? This year's NBA finals is expected and hyped by many. Of course it will be a clash between the Golden State Warriors and Cleveland Cavaliers. It is expected to be a bloodbath between what is considered the top two teams of the league. These teams are the ones who have manage to win the most and who win the most important games of the season. For someone who is not a basketball fan it might be annoying to see flooding posts, rants and memes in the social media. I myself have witnessed the debates on comment sections and tweets and battle of memes supporting their bets and dishonoring the other team or the other player? It in turn lead me to reflection. Why on earth is there a need for something like this to exist? Is this the end point of human appreciation, emotion and subjectivity? We play favourites. We agree with something and in turn do we really need to be hostile on those who oppose our beliefs? Basketball is a sport. Sports ...

Credit to the Source The lives you give, to let us live the blood you shed, your glorious deeds You fight the war and there you are You're sent to die , to bleed to death Is there a war, worth fighting for when lives are taken, and homes left ruin What are these, the things you fight for Is it even worthy, a cause to be? While we in places, we live in comfort You spend your days in a deadly sport To kill or be killed, is there a difference If this life so absurd, is there something good? While it is painful to see your pictures The loved ones left behind the turmoil the sons and daughters, that will shed their tears The cry of "Father you will always be missed" You deaths should remind the generations The sacrifices, you gave have reasons To live our life in contemplation That the freedom we live was the life you left. -j cansino-

What happens when the things we love are the things that seems to be working against us? What if your fears are true and the whispers around are manifestations of the truth?. What if life is playing a joke on you again? In a lone moment Everything seems to break things seems to fall apart the rain is falling I hear it clear I see it and the coldness ... It creeps into the deep The deepest of the deep It sinks, it hurts and it burns. When you want to be the victor but you are tired fighting If you see your self winning but not what winning means It is tiresome,  what does it mean to be? What does it mean to be happy

When life casts its jokes that I feel too bad to laugh When things I perceive are nothing but bluffs When the joke is me and and it tears me apart Then I still do my things and still smile at the waves I want them to wonder what keeps me awake Of all the things in this world, that I want to have Its you, your soul your self that I want now to bag. The greatest thing I fear is being alienated from your love The holes inside my soul, its the cravings that you fill, Inside, they always will stay, forever yes they will. To be near you is like heaven in this hell When I hold your hands, I will sit in the storm still I will never be afraid to face the storms and gales. I will be your knees when your arthritis strikes We'll be the ultimate truth in the world that is full of lies. The greatest thing I fear is to see how your tears roll Your love is the greatest thing, it will always make me full I will break my bone, it will crush to pieces it w...

So it's thursday and I think I am surviving this week. Though I don't know how it happened. It march and we are slowly being killed by the demands of our job. Good thing I have complied all the requirements on my subjects last year. Looking back on the previous semester I have been in a war. I mean an all out war with the academic and nonacademic facets of my graduate schooling. The travels are the most exhausting part.  As of now, I am surviving the only obstacles are the thesis and the comprehensive examination.Im going through it. As of now my vision is clear for my life that I will only spend my years in the Department of Education for on 10-20 years. I will be seeking a different path afterwards. I still see promise from my novel its on its 9th chapter and counting. I have different ideas in my mind right now. hoping that I will still live to see them finish though. Life is a gift it the best gift given by God for us to enjoy. Life is short and its so obscure its so r...

So March is the most exciting month for the students. I believe in that, but hey! I just realized that I got older a bit. Well, surely I am excited about the summer vacation, but not because I have plans for it. I grew up in a family culture where summer vacation is not a thing. Just vacation, no tours, no travels. And I think it's enough. What is happening at all those times that I have not posted anything on this blog? Well, I'm in an era of my life when rest is a luxury that I can hardly afford.    So what exactly happened? Basically, I am a TEACHER. I should be in the school teaching my students mathematics, English, Filipino, and those sorts of things. But what I actually do is line up all the reports that I need to accomplish and all those extracurricular activities that have been boggling my mind. What is hard in being a teacher in this country is that there is no clear job description for us. All we know is we are being employed as a teacher, but our actu...

Sounds of a Lullabye There is peace... the serenity that I would never want to end,  the life that I want to live. The song that I want to sing and the words that I want to shout.  In the stillness of the night in the coolness of the wind.  The starry sky and the song of the birds.  Deep and deep into my soul, with it my spirit is filled. The sweet melody of the sleeping child I remember now it made me glad.                                  -Jerone Avel S. Cansino